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 I had this whole long post, telling my former little sister off. But I guess I can sum it up as such:

-Look up what class, humility, maturity and (especially) integrity mean. Then apply it to your life.

-You're right, I am transparent. You know exactly what I feel, when I feel it. I don't hide shit from anyone anymore. Maybe it's my maturity, maybe it's me growing up, maybe it's me become a little bit of an adult. But I've come to realize that life's too short for bullshit games, especially the ones of your variety. Oh, and in case you haven't noticed, I really have no problem calling you out on your bullshit anymore. Get used to it.

-It's also good to know that I'm a fat, ugly cunt. Let's deconstruct this statement. Yes, I have a cunt, last time I checked. I may not be supermodel gorgeous, but I'm not ugly, that much I know. And I might be chubby (my love of junk food > desire to work out) but fat I am not. While I'm on the subject, I know that I have way more internal beauty than you could ever dream of having or delude yourself into thinking you have. 

-Don't you dare insult the people in my home. For the longest time, they have bent over backwards to keep you happy (which is a good part of the problem), especially Mom, whom you have absolutely no respect for. (You should really look up that word too.) Oh, and did you forget about Babci, who also lives in my home? Way to insult your grandmother. 

-I really don't know where you get off speaking for everyone in that home; if they have a problem with me, they know my phone number so they can call me and tell me themselves. We're all adults here so we can handle things like adults.

-Oh and the subject of me being manipulative. I really shouldn't dignify this bullshit claim with a response, but being manipulative is one thing I am not. Not for one second in my 21 and a half years on this Earth (that's 678,473,909 seconds, in case you were wondering) have I ever, ever thought of manipulating anyone for anything. It's called integrity, something I wish to God you'd get. 

-The world does not revolve around you. It never has and never will. So please, stop acting like it does. 

-This is the straw that broke the camel's back. I no longer want you to be a part of my life, which absolutely kills me to say (but I'm shit sure that you could careless). I want you to be involved, I want you at my wedding, standing with my three sisters, I want us to be friends again like we were before I left for school four years ago. (And btw, get over it. I left. I don't know why you still hate me for it. I did what I needed to do and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I never abandoned you, ever. I had pictures all over the place and wished that you were up here with me, having a good time with me. If it were the other way around, I'd be upset too, but I like to think I'd temper that negativity with knowing that you would be having a good time and learning and growing.)

-If and when you ever grow up and realize you need to work with a professional to modify your destrictive behavior, please, let me know. I'll still be the first person to support you, because I'm still your older sister, even if I no longer want you in my life. You'll probably take advantage of that, like you always have, but just in case you're actually sincere, I'll be there. That's how family works. Learn that lesson too. (As in, it's good for more than taking advantage of everyone. You actually support your family, regardless. You have their backs without any desire of being compensated because your reward is knowing that they have your back, anytime. You give them your shoulder in bad times and laugh with them in good times. You are friends and love and laugh and have corny ass inside jokes with one another. Especially our family.)

-Oh, and feel free to spew whatever shit you want to. The people whom I want in my life know the truth and you just look like the ass that you always look like. 

-Once again, I hope you can find peace in your life and that one day we can resume our relationship. I hope you see the error in your ways. I hope nothing bad happens to you because of the way you choose to lead your life. But I hope you know enough to not coming running to me if anything bad does happen without doing a complete 180 in your behavior.

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